In a subject entitled "the day I met J" I used the words ‘why we are here.’ Well, to be honest, maybe I was a bit presmptuous. I mean who am I to assume why any of us are here. I feel a certain affinity to the existence of J mascis, I love his music(I use the word love in its purest form, a form that goes beyond: what it does for me. I want to be a better person I want to do for someone what J’s music does for me.) J’s music has got me through some hard times, J’s music has helped me move towards making sense of it all, J’s music has been the colour in a whole lot of black, while I try to see in the dark J’s music has been a light, when life throws a curve ball J’s music has been the wise old coach telling me to swing away, when the fire flirts with extinguishment J’s music has been the oxygen that brings it all back, that guy standing on the ledge contemplating the end, flirting with the peace that probably exists at the bottom of a cold dark lake, J’s music makes it bearable, makes life livable. For the rest of my life as I plug on ahead trying to find a partner, trying to be some good to the world and to myself, trying to make a difference in the monotony of everyday existence, it is J’s music that will get me through. Even if, ultimetely, I find what I’m looking for I will still remember some solo J created, some soul searching lyric he wrote, some numb moan, wail, screech, or mumble that came forth from his throat. It is all J exudes, all he creates, all he embodies. That is why I am here. Please tell me, why are you here??