Sounds like the stuff I write at night which I never let anyone read.
So why don’t you sign up for the student-visa thing? Just curious.

Kurt’s journals, tough decision. Decided I wasn’t gonna buy it, because I don’t want to pay for Courtney’s salary. Flipped through it in a bookstore, though.

I agree on the visa thing if you can swing it. I couldn’t based on a time issue with V.A. funding and school, but if your heart is not for the studies at this time, maybe later. Spent a year in Okinawa, Japan with the jarheads, as you might know. Don’t remember a ton of it due to trying to make a name for myself by getting shtifaced as often as possible. Would suggest films, books etc. on the area before you go, set some itinerary to go along with the smoke and drink.

You seem to be going through some familiar things, but all I will say about it is cut yourself some slack if you think you need it.

Well, it sounds like you really can’t do what you want to do where you are. I’m not sure where in the midwest you live, but I know some of those small towns can be a real downer for young people. I went through a similar thing for several years after I graduated from college. My hometown (Pittsburgh, Pa) was really starting to get me down, it was hard to meet knew people, local scene got repetative real fast, ect. I got the heck out, and I have been really happy about it since. My only regret is that I didn’t do it years ago. Baltimore/DC area having one of the highest per capita amount of single women doesn’t hurt much either. Sometimes a change of scenery can do alot more good than you think. The whole being disinterested in relationships, "scoring", meeting women thing has cleared up for me in no time. Heck, I’ve already met a girl who likes Guided by Voices, Built to Spill AND Sleater-Kinney. I was a pretty hardcore nihlist before, but honestly life is now beautiful again.

PS: Weed is the best smelling thing on earth, yes

All limbs, has half a brain, is cool, and is actually cute. Not perfect, but anymore would be asking way too much. Back home, if I would have met a girl who knew who any of those bands were, I’d be stoked beyond belief…

I actually met a cool girl at Dismemberment Plan back in October. Her name was Courtney and she was like the only person getting into it – probably because it was her 21st b-day and her friends got her smashed.

Anyway, during Ice of Boston, the singer does his usual, "If you want to get up on stage, do it" bit and at first she was the only one who got up there. She started yelling, "Get the fuck up here!" to everyone over the mic, which leads to me stage diving and spilling some other girls drink on her, which is another story altogether.

Where was I going with this? Oh yeah, that’s the only scenester girl I’ve ever met here in Richmond.

If you guys want to meet lots of girls who have good taste in music, just move to a big city. But scenester girls really aren’t that great cause they just go for schmucks in bands.