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UPDATE 2/08/07, 9:33AM-Hey all. I know this is really long. I don’t expect you to read it. I just needed a place to vent yesterday, and sat down, and started typing, and well, you know
Well didn’t really lose it. 30 days to prove I can do it. And based on the downward spiral and negative trend that has occurred during the last 6 months, the end is inevitable. So hey, why prolong it? They have provided no training. My coworkers come in late, take long lunches, and leave early. The major workload of the day seems to be talking, surfing the internet, or seeing who can visit the cafeteria the most. (This is why your insurance rates are so fricking high by the way. Gotta pay these people to not work and complain about.)
So I was put on a 30 day "improvement" period a month ago. I came back with a four page arguement against it. Demonstrating they have not provided an environment conducive to creating success. Email upon email that shows the conflict. They told me to go f myself.
Now I think I have clearly demonstrated that I can perform the duties listed that would show I can perform my job. So my manager says today, "well yes, you have, but now I have a whole ‘nother set of criteria I am going to say you haven’t met, so I’m going to go ahead and put you on 30 days probation, and if it doesn’t work out, c-ya, bye-bye". Kind of hard to hit the bullseye when they keep moving the board.
I have given them every thing I got. When they said jump, I jumped. When they said go left, I went left. When they said light your hair on fire and stand on one leg while hopping down the hallway, I did that too. Ever feel like you just can’t win?
I came as ice, I came as a whore
I came as advice that came too short
I came as gold, I came as crap
I came clean and I came as a RatI’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, we’re all a bunch off a-holes, it’s just a matter of finding your type…
So I’m pretty disappointed. I’ve never failed at anything in my life. So to have someone say "you’re not cutting it", seems pretty absurd to me. I have to wonder what part they play in it. Am I perfect? hell no. But I tell you what, I can take on anything you throw at me, and I always do. It ain’t worth it, if it ain’t a challenge.
I’ve stressed about, I’ve talked with my manager, coworkers, friends, and family about it. I’ve turned the other cheek. I’ve giving them 110%. I’ve giving them countless hours of time and energy outside of the "regular workday". I even read a book about it. How can I do better? How can I contribute to your and my success? What can I do?
How can I overcome a culture of negativity, where the workforce is mindless drones, hating every day they have to show up to their miserable little jobs that only serves to contribute to their overall meaningless and empty miserable little lives?
"Well maybe if you do this" they said. Or "have you considered trying that" they told me. "How about…"
Yeah, I did this and tried that. We did it your way and it ain’t working. Hell, I was the one who initiated it, cuz that is the kind of guy I am. I want to acheive. I want to overcome. I want to succeed.I think they’re scared. Scared I would outshine them. Scared I would make them look bad. One person even told me that. "Don’t work to hard" she said "you don’t want to make us look bad." I came in with a "can do" attitude. I told them I wanted to work hard and learn as much as I could, and I think that didn’t go over too well. Sometimes people with an agenda scare the living crap out of people who would rather be slugs. They will go out of their way to ensure you fall from grace. Too bad they don’t put that much effort into their work, maybe they would get somewhere.
I came as a call, I came as flat
I came too soon so I came back
I came as flowers, I came as nice
I came as dirt and I came as its priceSo now what do I do? I don’t have any prospects lined up. Oh I’ve been looking. The smart ones always cover their arses. Do I just let it be, and ride out the 30 days? Especially knowing full well at the end, they will say "Well you met our criteria, but now there is another set of expectations we don’t think you’ve met. Oh, did we forget to mention those, my bad". Screw me once, shame on you. Screw me twice, shame on me…
Maybe I should just give them my two weeks and let them have the satisfaction of knowing they won, they got their way. Cuz it sure as hell seems that is what they have wanted all along. I tell you, at least I wouldn’t have to put up with the stress, and bullshit, and maniacal ravings they spew out.
I guess I could fight it. Your going to terminate me and I’m am going to show it was a wrongful termination. Please don’t make me get a lawyer involved, cuz I have mounds of evidence that backs what I claim (I think it’s a shame I have had to collect mounds of evidence). Should I fight for that extended severance package? At the same time, do I want to put that much effort into it? I’ve already given so much that I don’t even think they’re worth any more of my time and effort and stress. Maybe better to just walk away…
I read an article online the other day. It had 10 signs that it may be time to start looking for another job. I identified with all 10 of them. When you are shooting 100% on something like that, sirens should be going off in your head. Someone should be hitting you in the head with the "hey stupid, wake up" hammer. But I keep saying to myself, it will get better. If I just keep trying, maybe if I do this, or maybe if I do that.
!!!!WAKE UP STUPID, IT’S NOT GETTING BETTER!!!!
I don’t know, but I been told
You never die and you never grow old
Uh Oh!I can always go back to landscaping. Guess I’ll have to, gotta keep the money coming in. I did always enjoy it, but more as a hobby.
Uh Oh!
But how will that look on the ole resume? How do you leave corporate america and then get back in it without the interviewer having hesitation towards the interviewee? How do you explain that you left, because it was the best decision to make at the time. That will have to be a very well thought out and gloriously crafted conversation indeed.
Uh Oh!
Oh boy…so many thoughts…
Nationwide, is on your side. What a F*$^%)* joke…
I started to read this but then I thought you were rather long winded and decided to skim. And while I was doing this I read "uh oh" while simultaneously hearing "uh oh" in a song I was listening too. Strange, strange things are at work here. But anyways, it’s not like I have something profound to add here so uh oh…
But seriously, all the best…you know I truly mean it.
Kurticus that absolutely sucks. I would cut my loses (well, I would push a bit on the severence because fuck them, you deserve it).
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I really hate to hear you have gone through so much bullshit for a job. It is just not worth it man. If they put you through 1/2 of that kind of stress for a job it is not worth your time. Life is too short and there are plenty of other places that would appreciate your drive.
Good luck!
I’m so sorry Kurticus. I — and, I’m sure, many others here — can sympathize all too well with giving too much of yourself to a futile work environment. At my last job (thank GOD I’m gone), they too gave me the line about working too hard: "you come in and sit at your desk and you just work! you don’t get up and talk to people!" (Apparently I was supposed to discuss American Idol and my sexual escapades every morning with the rest of them.) They also brought it up during my first (and only) review; finding no flaws in my work performance they told me that I needed to "lighten up" and "talk to coworkers more." Finally, after hiring me because they thought I would be great at organizing the job and whipping everyone into shape, I did such a good job that they told me I was putting too many expectations on the lower staff. But the last straw was when they wanted to increase my workload and decrease my pay.
I tried fighting them on it as best I could– human resources, even the president of the company– and after suppressing my flight instinct because I needed, you know, food and shelter, I finally told them they could suck it and I left.
It definitely boiled down to jealousy, petty cattiness, and them being intimidated because I was way too good at what I did. I’ve found that most people who work at corporate offices are very insecure, unhappy at their jobs, and easily thrown off by unique and opinionated individuals (especially newcomers) who work harder than they do. It sounds very similar to what you experienced.
I now work in a much more peaceful, sane environment with paid lunches and a merchant discount at the tea shop. It’s closer to home and the people are warm and flexible. Good things are coming to you, too.
Best,
R"The return of Kurticus " wrote:So I’m pretty disappointed. I’ve never failed at anything in my life. So to have someone say "you’re not cutting it", seems pretty absurd to me. I have to wonder what part they play in it. Am I perfect? hell no. But I tell you what, I can take on anything you throw at me, and I always do. It ain’t worth it, if it ain’t a challenge.
What can I do?
I can always go back to landscaping. Guess I’ll have to, gotta keep the money coming in. I did always enjoy it, but more as a hobby.
I’ve failed at pretty much everything in my life, so when someone says "you ain’t cuttin’ it…" I’ll start singing "So, What Else Is New?" I know I do my job and I do it with gusto. I won’t be put down. And if you put me down, I’ll have a plan A to plan Z in my head, in case something goes wrong. I’ve been in this type of situation before. I’d say, leave. Stop waisting your time until one or the other person explodes. It’s not worth it. Go back to landscaping for the summer, since it will be something that you enjoy. Unlike your sickening work environment. And believe me, you do not want to become sick over this.
Kurticus, I’m bummed to hear things have gotten worse. As bad as it is now you’ll feel 100% better when it over. I’m a firm believer that when one door closes another one opens. Best of luck in your transition. :-
"tonas " wrote:I’m a firm believer that when one door closes another one opens.Unless you enter a room with only one door and it locks behind you. I’d start carrying a chainsaw around if I was you.
On a brighter note, I’m sure there are a lot of lonely housewives out there who wouldn’t mind inviting a young sweaty landscaper in for lemonade.
everyone here has some good thoughts………….I like my job and the pay is Okay but weird things happen,
much like Rosa was saying………….I don’t get to see tv much so I don’t have much comment……..but my disdain for television comes across as a "I think I’m better than you because I don’t watch tv" which of course is pretty much how I feel but I thought I was hiding it better…………also the sex talk, it just gets old. Also, I was borderline assaulted by a co-worker who was male and much taller than me and he pressed his finger into my sternum to make a point with me, he jabbed me once really hard and said "blah,blah,blah, I don’t even remember, he was uptight with something I had done. I went to my boss and told him "I was borderline assaulted" the boss who loved me and stressed to me, when I first arrived, that "I’m here for you whenever you need help, to talk, anything……..I want you to be happy" I went to see that guy and as I walked into his office he said "I would love hear how you were borderline-assaulted" and he did the quote marks in the air with his fingers while rolling his eyes. Suddenly, I realized this may not be the place that makes me happy.but the pay, the benefits, the pension, the freebies
lots of good freebies with my job, health club membership, free movie tickets,free coffee at Starbucks downtown, I picked the brains of some of my closest friends, they all said "hang in there, they are just trying to bring you down, be strong." "Keep your job, look at how much money you have put into savings already, you would be a fool to leave" but my Sagittarius friend (Sagittarius like J Mascis) said my philosophy with a job is "easy come easy go baby"
I breathed deeply and I knew that was what I needed to hear.
So Kurticus I say…………………………….
Easy come easy go…………………….baby.Do you like Wilmington, I could pick my Dad’s brain about jobs that are available, He is based there. You do talk about drinking a fair bit which is something many of us did in our youths, but working at ABX requires
that you at least appear very "straight laced."
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Sheit. I’m sorry to hear that your efforts to adapt and overcome didn’t succeed.
I sincerely hope that something good comes out of this and that you’ll look back in a years time and be glad that it happened.
I wish I could’ve twisted something more helpful and creative out for you, but it feels like I’ve been skull fucked by a tow truck.Hey all,
Just wanted to thank you for the positive words of encouragement and advice!I just finished writing my resignation letter and will HAND IT OVER first thing tomorrow morning. I have a prospect or two lined up to bring money in during the interim which is a good thing.
I have 7-9 months in reserves depending on whether or not I make some lifestyle changes.
Plus, recruiters are knocking down my door ever since I started looking for jobs in the event I want to contract until a permanent position becomes available. I think this will actually pay more then what I’m currently making, which is cool. I think I am going to contract for a while as it is usually in 3-6 month increments which will let me get a good feel for a company and if it’s a good fit, hopefully a permanent offer will come out of the deal. Plus, it sure will help to broaden my contacts and hopefully gain the additional experience that I’m definately not getting at my current job.
So it’s all good and at least I don’t have to put up with that FREAKSCENE anymore
Thanks again for all your support!!!
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