Malcom Report 6/20: goddamn gypsy women!

[malcom]

Geeze, what a week this is proving to be.

Tues- Get up for school, make it on time, but discover an essay worth 1/10th of my grade is due as of now. This is a bad omen.

I live about a half a mile from work, so I enjoy walking to work when its sunny out. Good for the enviroment, good for me, and (best of all) cheap. So I’m waiting to cross the street. This is a fairly crowded two-lane deal with a turn lane (suicide lane) in the middle. Somebody stops to let me cross, but the backed up turn lane prevents me from seeing an SUV a block away whipping around the corner. And the motherfucker doesn’t even slow down! I made it across in one peace, but a little shaken. I really hate SUV’s

Get home from work, start on Essay, call Amanda, make plans for Wednesday afternoon, maybe things aren’t bad

Wednesday-Get up, doze off, wake up again, think I have 1/2 hour to get to work. Run out the door. Discover I actually had 1 1/2 hours to get to work. Work for four ours with a lazy coworker and a puppet show ocurring (I work as a childrens librarian) so things are pretty crazy. Get off at one, call Amanda, discover I’ve been put on hold since she has a family thing to attend. Decide to work on essay, discover my file from the previous night (with 265/400 words written) is corrupt <img>
start over on essay. Get call from Amanda we’re getting together (just the two of us!) at seven/ish she’ll call me. Look up a while later notice it’s almost seven, go over to her place she’s not home. Work Malcom once again forgot an important detail. She finally calls me around eightish to see if I still want to watch the movie. I go over, she has a friend with her <img> <img> <img> . Well now, this changes things a bit. Watch the movie, go out to watch me lose at pool a bit. Amanda is getting phone calls and running into people every five minutes. I feel like an attention starved puppy here, but doesn’t hanging out with somebody actually entail communicating with them?

Thurs-
Realize I’m either (A) "one of the guys now" or (B) being played severely.

Spent Class touring the campus library. Excuse me, but I think that three years of working at a library provides me with a pretty good perspective on research.

God things suck sometimes.

You people are great, you don’t interrupt or anything.

I suppose the big central topic here is, How should I handle this. I’ve had a crush on this girl for better than a year. I feel guilty fantasizing about other women. In short, I am severly stuck on her. And for a while I was feeling reciprication. Unfortunately, now I feel like "one of the guys" the past three times we’ve gone out other people were there. should I continue to waste my time?

[SG]

Tough one Malc,if you feel like you`re not getting any attention or not communicating when you`re with her then why bother continue a relationship with her?I had friends that I felt I was just there with and it was pointless to bother with,I don`t think they listened to a thing I said anyway.You could give it more time to see if things change if you want or you could talk to her about it,which could end in a breakup but at least you would know if she is interested in you and not one of the guys.
Anyway,that`s my advice,see what else people here think about it.

ps-the Nickelback guy looks like a dog,an Irish Setter I think <img>

[malcom]

Well, the good news is, I ran into her best friend last night. I’m not exactly being ignored, at least i’m not being specially ignored. That was a fairly normal evening.

But why do I continue to spend time on her? because I’ve liked her for better than a year, and been seriously stuck on her for the past four months. And because at this party about two weeks ago I was talking to her and there was this invisible little spark. . .

[Mattman]

So, have you actually TOLD her how you feel? ’cause that helps sometimes too… <img>

As far as the essay deal, it’s only 1/10 of your grade… Part of the college experience is figuring out exactly how much work you can NOT do, and still pass. <img>

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[malcom]

</font><blockquote><font>quote:</font><hr><font> So, have you actually TOLD her how you feel? ’cause that helps sometimes too… </font><hr></blockquote><font>But that would actually make sense. . .

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